Truths about me - DDoS, Immaturity and more.

Hey Brawler's,
I bet most of you are thinking: "Oh great, it's him again". But please hear me out.

Today I want to get some things off my chest. This is going to be a place where I am going to talk about the "dark" side of me. Now, many of you may be shocked to hear some of these things.

Demotion:
So, a lot of you people think that I resigned from my role of staff. Not true, well, it kind of is..
Technically I was demoted for being an asshole, but the way things were panning out I was going to quit. I had already typed up a resignation, and I was just about to post it when Putty wanted to talk to me.

He said "I need to talk to you about your future as a Moderator", and we had a lengthy talk about the staff and what I needed to improve on if I was to continue as staff. Sadly, I had made the mistake of saying a few things that I shouldn't have, and this combined with a few other things made putty MAD! He said that he didn't want me in the team anymore, and I said that I was fine with that and I was planning on leaving anyway.

Now, you are probably wondering what happened to make me want to quit. Well, quite simply it's not what, but who. And that person is: @VforVenom. It all started one day in staffchat, where we were all bored, and he started to call me Mrcowdick. And I must admit that I over reacted here, but I started to get pissed off. I had had a crap day, and one of my best friends had been taken to hospital with a broken skull. Now, normally this wouldn't be an issue, but for some reason it made me MAD. I started to retaliate to Venom's smart remarks and this was the start of the end for me.

Ever since this incident Venom and I hated each other, and one day he told putty about something that I said in chat. It was a perfectly normal thing to say, but for some reason the higher staff decided that it was not appropriate for staff to say something like that, and I got a warning for something stupid.


Immaturity:
As you can all see, I have not been the most mature person after my leave from the staff, and this is down to me not giving a damn anymore. The only reason why I wanted to be staff was to make the severs a better place for everyone (totally not the free MVP), and when I was told that my best wasn't good enough I took it badly. Very badly. So after that, I started to become as bad as the people that I was trying to stop, and this lead me to doing some extremely stupid things that I really do regret. I also started to look for other people to blame for my predicament, and in the end I came up with my best friends. I started to blame them for everything going wrong, and I said some really awful things to them.

To those people I really and truly am sorry, and I hope that you can forgive me for being such a ****ty person to be around.


Special apologies:
@Darkchaosknight - I know that I have been an asshole to you, and I said that you should be demoted. But I said these things out of blind rage, and I never really meant any of them. I hope you can forgive me for my actions, and I hope we can move on and become friends once again.

@GreenPeas_ - After my unfortunate situation started, I blamed you largely for what happened. Oh how stupid I was. You were just trying to help me, and I took it all the wrong way, and the things that I have said about you behind your back make me ashamed to still exist. You are a truly amazing person, and you give your all to be here for everyone.

@Everyone, thank you all for putting up with my bull**** over this last period, and I hope you can all forgive me for maybe ruining your time here.



DDoS:
This last part is probably the hardest for me to admit. After all the events that went down, I became the ultimate scumbag, and attempted to DDoS some of the people that I felt were responsible what happened to me. I failed, as I couldn't bring myself to do it in the end, but I still feel extremely guilty of what I have done.


So, thanks for listening to me talking about all of my crap.
Peace out, and I hope you can find somewhere in your hearts to forgive me.

 

I never got my hands on a booter, but I tried.

 

Thank you, Pikmin. If I ever need to talk about something you'll be the first person that I'll think off.

Me a lot more than you :V

 

Thanks, Julius! I have gotten over my "phase" and I'm now back to the person that I once was. I just needed some time to myself.

 

Pft. The chances of me getting staff again after what I've done is a big fat 0.

 

Let's hope you can do a better job than me when you get accepted.

I knew that all the staff knew about me, but I felt like it was better to come clean and be remembered for what I really am. I also felt like you all had a right to the truth.

 

That is what I am aiming for. I was ashamed of who I had become, and I am trying to become the person that I once was.