Wondering: Why?

So...I played for around 5 minutes today, and I instantly became bored. I logged off, and I reconnected in the afternoon, playing for around another 5 minutes. I got bored again.
After achieving a 3 kdr at lvl 76 with just scav and grenades, I just don't see the point in playing anymore. Sure, I could keep on playing and obtaining a better kdr just for bragging rights, but I don't want to sound like an excessively boastful player.
AND Mc-War doesn't entertain me anymore. I don't understand why. See, the only reason why I've been playing this game that panders to high level players and crippling system to low-lvl newbies and sometimes broken game mechanics with honestly no actual 2.0 update in sight is because I'm actually kind of good at it.
I gradually got better by watching other War players' youtube videos and utilizing their unfair game strategies and subjecting them onto less-skilled, less-experienced players, all at the expense of my precious time and a sh*t ton of procrastination. Back then, I played Mc-War originally for these reasons:
1) it was fun, my competence level was deplorable, I was complete sh*t
I logged back in after a half-a-year hiatus.
1) to get better bc of my perfectionist yet sometimes apathetic nature
2) I envied the players who nuked and wanted to be like them, but I slowly realized as I got better that I never want to be like those players
3) I actually realized how to play the game.
I got better, reaching milestones that other players did not give a single sh*t about.
1) I played because I liked killing people. It wasn't so much about getting better anymore. That was still a factor in why I played, but not as much. Every little kill, every +25 xp and +$1, every line of text that appeared in my chat, I craved it. Every line of text was another burst of dopamine into my system, that euphoric bliss that I embraced, that I loved.
2) I was in some pretty prestigious clans. Technically, that only includes INC, but then again, I soon realized that I loathed their playing style, their demeanor, everything anyone else with knowledgeable info about the game that was stereotypical, I hated it. Of course, that applied to me. So I guess I hate myself. I do hate myself irl, but to a minute extent. Mostly about the way I react to certain situations and the way I look. Anyway, I digress.
3) I guess I got entitled, and reking noobs and newbies and just regular players or high level players in general entertained everything. I also played a little bit too much.
3.0 kdr
1) I played just to dick around. I usually use msr, dragunov, or famas. Always python though. I want to see what my score is, to challenge myself in the face of adversity and very low odds of surviving from perilous situations.
2) to target people - usually high level players, or basically the person who killed me/revenge (pretty much my whole War career)
3) Literally because it is my only gaming option, as Minecraft always has been. Not even kidding about that. Excluding F2P steam games and mobile gaming. I don't think I'm going to play that much minecraft now. I have other options, and I'm procrastinating right now. I need to study for regular SAT, SAT II Chinese, and my academics.


I think I'm going to make an outro soon. Even though I already made one. Maybe I'll look around on the forums from time to time, and just to play Mc-War for the unstoppable wave of nostalgia that completely engulfs me.

So...I ask you. Why do you play Mc-War?
Also why did I make this thread?

 

I tried to enjoy it, but now I can't.

Also, I changed to poll to Unlimited, seeing that many people would've chose at least 2 or more options.

Or maybe...I'm just tricking myself. It's that phenomenon when you want to be or feel a certain way, so your mind tricks you, thinking that it is that way.

I already got used to them...