An Apology

Yo
So, yeah, an apology. Mostly to specific players, not gonna name them, but in part to the whole War community.
Whoever knows me for a longer time now, might remember the time when I requested a perm mute for myself because I wanted to change how I behave on the server (then unmuted myself by Rocky after a time). This had been working for a while, but not for very long.
The problem with me and basically, with every game on this planet, it can be virtual, a card game, some sort of hobby sport or literally playing outside (lol?), if it is competitive in just any sort, I simply take it too serious. If I find a good game, I can get myself so into it I can't stand up from it for hours, untill I learn everything about it, untill I master it. It can take a shorter time, but it can take weeks, or even months. Years. Like war. And whenever I find something in the game that is just "working against me", not meaning players, but ping, lagg, unfair odds, I just can't stop myself from rageing on it. And this often finds other players in their target. Because, it is easier to blame someone living than something you can't change on.
(My quick temper also doesn't help a lot, not in real life, not in the virtual world)
The reason I requested mute back then was because I wasn't the guy in virtual than I am in real life. And that bothered me a lot. And yet again, this feeling found me.

I apologize to everyone who I have ever, ever raged on. I've been playing War for long-long years now, and I can't recall even just a week when I have not been mad on someone. It is something I deeply regret now, and something which I will be working on in the future to hold down. It just doesn't worth the energy. And it surely doesn't worth the friendship with others, or the tie with the community. And it does not suit me nor my age (and supposed maturity lol).
Yet again, I apologize for my behaviour, please forgive me for it.

And I also apologize because with that mute, I have already said it once that I will change. And yet that wasn't true, and I am sorry that this is basically just the copy of that in some sorts.

I am going to try and change by myself now, because the mutes didn't seem to take any effect (I requested 2 other mutes after the first ones, but those were mostly unknown for the others, and the 3rd one was just cringy because, I suppose, even the staff knew that this is just foolish). I will be definitely try to be a better person on the server.

As of that, I can not promise anything just yet. As I said, I have a horrible quick temper, and I can lose my mind in seconds. If my rage finds you, please don't take it seriously and upmost do not take it personally. It is probably because of my 0-20 fps and/or my 300+ ping

I hope I can still be looked at as a nice guy. Now or later
Peace

(P.S. no sorry for the awful english not everyone is a native speaker ok? ;-; )